February 6, 2020
So today I’ve been pretty quiet on social media I took today to basically unplug myself from all of the different social media platforms because my little bitty turned 2 years old today I feel like in the last year she has changed and grown and learned so many different things and really stepped into her personality. I decided that today would be focused on her so I put my phone down turned it on do not disturb and fully Focus my attention on her. As I scrolled through my galleries of photos of her from the last year I realized how quickly year 1 to year 2 went by.
When people tell you that your kids grow up in a blink of an eye they really are kidding especially when they’re on the move which if any of you have toddlers or have kids you know that these years are the years when they’re the most active and on the move. As I looked at these pictures it was crazy to see just how much she’s grown. You always know that your kids grow up but because you’re around them each and every day you don’t truly notice how much they really have changed in those 365 days from their last birthday. It’s only when you go back and actually look through the images from a year ago up until the current day that you realize just how much your small little bitty has changed. How much their hair has grown, how much taller they have gotten, how many more skills they have aquired and so much more. I love to see how much she’s changing and growing but at the same time it also makes me sad. It makes me sad because I realize my little baby is no longer a baby but a growing toddler with interests and passions and an ever-growing desire to learn and be a “Big girl”. Which one day she will be just that a Big Girl.
As much as I love seeing her little brain figuring things out, and her acquiring and perfecting new skills it makes me realize how important each and every moment is with her at each and every stage that she is currently in and will go through because time is precious. These are all moments that will be gone soon. There are many times that I sit here and wonder about what she’s going to be like and what her passions are going to be as she grows older. What things are going to stick with her for her entire life.
Then there are days like any mother or parents will tell you that you wonder how you are surviving the crazy crazy toddler days, with their 0 to 100 emotional changes. The days where they’re learning all their emotions and trying to figure out how to cope and deal with all of what the world is handing them. Those are the days you just feel like you don’t even know what to do. You honestly sit there and say, can I even do this? Am I a good parent? I am losing my mind. Can I just sit in the room and cry?
But then they come up to you for no reason at all with their tiny little toddler hands and arms wrapped them around you smile and give you the biggest hug ever. You know in that instant that all is perfect. This little girl is my world and I couldn’t honestly imagine life without her and her crazy, fun-loving, head-strong, very loud, animal-loving, goofy, huge heart, big blue-eyed self. She is compassionate and kind and I hope that always stays with her. Happy Birthday my crazy and cute little bitty. Momma and Dada love you SOOO much! Keep being you!